the Mind is Willing...But the Heart is Weak

Well, who would have thought that what probably had save my life years ago, had probably been slowly creeping up on me, and little by little stolen my heart.

Yes, the docs did mention the list of side effects of the chemotheraphy. The part about losing the hair and puking registered, but i guess i totally forgot what the chemo drugs could do to my heart. I guess that was the last thing on my mind when the imminent danger was the cancer.

I was due for my routine bone jabs last week. While waiting for the drugs to be ready, the nurses checked my vital stats, and found my pulse rate racing at 122 beats per minute. All these checks done while i was leisurely reading a magazine on the recliner. Subsequent readings hover around 100+ beats per minute. Not normal. ECG was ordered, and then the ECHO.

What really freaked me out is when the attending nurse asked if i needed a wheelchair or if i am feeling faint. They looked at me as if i am going to pass out any moment. Even the doc reminded me to check myself into the Emergency Department if i don't feel well. Thats when panic mode set in. Hmm, not normal.

Anyway, the week went by uneventfully with zero episodes of fainting or breathlessness, racing heartbeat, yes. Saw the Cardiologist today. Not good news. The heart is now weaker. I am now scheduled for andriogram in 2 weeks time, after i am back from my trip. The docs are quite certain that cause of the weaker heart could be due to the chemo but they are not going to rule out blockages in the artery. Either way, i now have a weaker heart, that is .

I am going on a vacation tomorrow. Hopefully it will mend my heart a little

Looks like December is going to be a busy month

this put a smile on my face

Remember the movie "Big" starring Tom Hanks in the 1980s? For some bizarre reason, the tune that he played on the giant piano kept playing on my mind, and i just had to do a seach on Youtube.

The name of the song is called, "Heart and Soul". theres so many versions, but I love this version. Put a smile on my face after a pretty dreadful week.

Will blog more about it next week :)

Mila's Daydreams

I just adored these whimsical pics from this blog "Mila's daydreams". Its 'a mother's peek into her little baby girl's dreams as the little one takes her nap.
I think its a pretty creative way to showcase the clothing as well...if you are in the retail biz for baby's clothing

These are a couple of cute ones that i like.

Little Red Riding Hood

Gone Fishing

Mary Poppins

Home-made Cotton Candy

Cotton candy makes me happy. I have always have such fond childhood memories of having those freshly made cotton candy in lovely hues of pink and blue that you can get from those amusement parks and night markets. They used to be so huge that i had my fingers and cheeks covered with sticky residue, which calls for some tongue twisting and finger licking moments as i tried to clean them off. Nic haven't really enjoyed one. The last time i got her one, Mike got pretty OCD about the sticky fingers and the hair getting into the Cotton Candy.

Well, guess what i found....Ta Dah..Nostalgia Electronics Hard Candy Cotton Candy Maker. Yes, you can now spin cotton candy from hard candy or sugar free candy from the comfort of your home. I thought this is a pretty cute gadget, and its in pink :)

If only I do not need to watch my sugar intake....

The Hard Candy Cotton Candy Maker is available here.

hmm...

My poor neglected blog. I have just been so caught up with the goodness of life that I guess i have neglected my little outlet of solace.



Things have been great and I am enjoying the quiet joy of my life right now. I just had my scans done last week. As usual, the days creeping up to the scan day is filled with anxiety and restlessness. And as Dr Lee deliver my "unremarkable" scan results, it was a great relief. I never knew "unremarkable" results could sound so good.

On the homefront, Mike has taken on a newfound passion in photography. He has invested money on a DSLR, and time on photography courses and photo-taking outings. Well, at least someone in the family can now take great photos. Definitely beats me in my pathetic photo taking skills using my point and shoot camera ANYTIME!


As for Nic, she seems to be growing up quite a bit. She enjoys listening to pop music, and enjoys artiste like Justin Bieber (eeks!), Taylor Swift, Miley Cyrus. She uploads their music to her Ipod Touch (her weekend toy), and listens to their music with the earpiece plug in, oblivious to everything and everyone.

Class work now include group projects, and the girls would arrange to go to each others home for group work and afterwhich they will be just "hanging out" (till we pick her up). And she is 8 (turning 9 in dec). Maybe i was a late bloomer, but I don't remember hanging out with my school friends at their home that young. I was still playing barbie dolls at my neighbour's home then. i really can't imagine how much she has grown. She is a baby no more. I couldn't help but fill a little tinge of sadness at how the years have gone by. But I couldn't help but be very thankful that I can be around for her as she grows each day.

Till the next update ...

The Ultimate Debate - Point Proven

Who has a higher threshold of pain, Man or Woman? Well, we got our point proven.

This is a Must watch for every man to understand and appreciate the their partner who is going to, or already had a child.

Have fun...This is Hilarious!

No Excuses...for neglecting the Blog

I can't imagine, that I have neglected my blog. No excuses. It just has been such a busy busy month.

This weekend, I celebrated my turning one more year older in a quiet and in the company of my treasured family members. It is also Mother's Day, and also the weekend before Nicole sits for her mid-year examinations. And becasue its the weekend before the examinations, there hasn't been much of a celebrations, as we didn't want Nic to be distracted.


What can I say, I think I am more anxious than Nic herself, and she is the one taking the examination. Though I am constantly reminding myself not to stress the kid, I couldn't help being anxious that she isn't putting in as much effort as i want her to. Oh well, I am just glad that she will be sitting for the last paper tomorrow. Fingers crossed that she will clear all the papers...no red dots

Blessings In a Bag

I realised recently that Nic had outgrown quite a bit of clothes. Her skirts were too tight, her jeans were hanging at her calves, and her dresses were way too mini for her own modesty. Anyway, managed to pull out almost 2 bags worth of clothes. Some of them were worn once or twice, others were just too good to be thrown away. We have also packed away some of her toys as well...lots of Happy Meals toys were evident of the amount of fast food she had consumed over the years. opps!

Anyway, we didn't like the idea of putting these into the bin...like i said, they were too good to be thrown away. I didn't want to leave these at the Salvation Army bins either for people to do their picking.

Anyway, I was surfing around when I found this webby: Blessings in a Bag. Blessings in a Bag seeks donation of used items in good condition, like clothing, books, shoes and toys. These are packed in boxes and sent to various orphanges in Cambodia, Philippines and Indonesia. I like the idea that the donation will go directly to a child who will find some use for it, (and not some kid who will "hiam" about it).

Well, we do hope that Nic's old toys will put a smile on the new owners' faces, and the clothes will warm little girl's heart and body. If you are a parent reading this, and wondering what to do with all those old clothing and toys that your little one has outgrown, why not do a charitable deed by donating them....and at the same time, free up some space. Its an ongoing project, sso no datelines :)

You may read more of what Blessings in a Bag does. There are currently 2 points where you can drop off your donation, Comics Mart at Serene Centre #01-02, or Scape Park, opposite Cineleisure.

Happy Packing!

Florist at Work

The big box of Flowers arrived safely this afternoon! Nope not from the hubby! Haven't received flowers from the Dearest since our first wedding annivesary...Oh well, we are practical folks :P



Oh! The lovely flowers that came in the box! There were Hydrangeas, Sweet little Rosettes, large blooms, all with lovely Swarosvki crystal centre! They are just so irristably lovely, and I just couldn't help but admire the fine delicate work of the Artisan. Check them out here



Not everything is listed yet. I will be retaking some of the pics, so the flowers can be seen in its full glory

We have stocked up on Mudpie products!

New in our Store, we have stocked up on a wide selection of lovely Mudpie products for the little princesses in our midst.

As part if our blog revamping exercise, we are offering all our readers a 15% discount off Mudpie products. Let us know upon checking out by indicating in the message box that you saw this ad on the blog!

This offer ends on 20 March 2010

We are almost fully dressed

Yes! We are almost done!

It has been pretty fun re-doing the blog, with loads of free stuff available online. There are endless resources out there in the WWW. It was a little tough going for me at first, as I had zero HTML training and graphic designing skills. Everything was picked up from online tutorials and I guess with a little hard work and patience, I managed to churn out a decent looking blog. *Pat myself on the back*

And now for the commitment part. With the shell in place, I guess I would need to be more discipline to get this blog rolling....

Pardon Our Appearance while we Dressed

If you have been coming by these few days, you would have notice that there are some changes with the blog's window dressing. I figured its about time that we did some sprucing up with the blog.

The blog has been a great resource for comfort as i journaled about the happenings in my personal life, and a great avenue for solace as i put my thoughts into words, and help sets my thoughts straight.

In the coming months, I will be twiddling around with the blog. Not sure how long it will take before I am satisfied with the end result, but I know it will take a while with the meagre HTML knowledge I have.

I will still be offering readers a glimpse to my life, and occasional updates on the healthfront. But i would also like to provide more highlights on what Little Gems could offer.

So stay tune, folks!

We have been Married 10 years!

Well, 10 years ago, I said yes to someone's suggestion to register for a HDB flat...I know, its kind of lame, but I thought "why not". He's a nice decent fella, good career, though a wee bit older than me. But oh well, i tend to have an inclination towards older man, anyway :P

And so, we took a leap of faith and went on to register our marriage, and said our vows on this day, 10 years ago. Thinking of it, I am kinda of blown away. Those 10 years hadn't been the smoothest journey of sort. We stuck it out, we honour our vows, we learn to accept each other's idiosyncracies and quirkiness, but more importanly, we learn to live with each other without tearing each other's hair out.

To my pillar of strength and love of my life, Happy 10th Anniversary!

I love this video clip from the movie "UP". I could watch this video over and video again, and it still brings on the tears.

All clear! Yeah!

Saw the doc yesterday, who delivered the results slip with a big smile. Yes, the results are stable. So, that means i have another 6 months worth of restful worry-free living, at least till the next scan comes round the corner in June.

Thank God

Kampate!

You know how sometimes I get so caught up with the hustle and bustle of daily life that I do forget that I have health issues. I have been well, thank you very much, and am enjoying my life, mundane as it may be. Well, tomorrow, i will be reminded yet again why i have so much to be thankful for.

I am due for my half-yearly scans tomorrow. Yes, I will arrive at the hospital early in the morning to have my blood drawn, radioactive isotope injected into me, and bladder filled up with some strange tasting liquid disguised as orange juice which will light up any lurking cancer cells in my abdomen.

Plug all set, Ready for the long day

LooK, i am Radioactive! Neon bracelet to warn people to stay away!

Outdated magazine that kept me entertained

The yucky drink that they made me drink. Bad aftertaste!

Despite having done these scans countless times, it just doesn't get any easier each time. I still get apprehensive when nurses couldn't find my veins to draw copious amount of blood for testing. I still close my eyes each time they pierced the needles through my skin. And lying there on the cold steel bed with the scanner machine just inches away from my face, i feel clastraphobic, and my heart beats a little faster each time, and i just want to scream, "get me out of here!". When more angles are required for certain region of my body, i get worried, despite the nurses reassuring me that they just want a better look. A better look at what? Did you see something that is not suppose to be there? At the end of the scans, i avoid looking at the nurses' eyes. While thay are cold and mechanical most of the time, I fear looking into their eyes and seeing the look of pity at having found something that will cripple my chances of surviving another month, another year.

Tomorrow will be a day that will serve as a reminder on the fragility of my life, and the many aspects of my life i should be thankful for.

ok, going to bed now. Its going to be a long long day tomorrow, and I am doing it alone ... should be ok. Been there, done that! Kampate!

OCBC Ad - A Nightmare for Bank Tellers

Remember the OCBC advertisement with the lil girl wanting to surprise her mum on her bday but OCBC surprises her with a cake instead?
This person actually took it for real & demanded a cake from them on her bday.

Its a funny read:
ttp://kitchentigress.blogspot.com/2010/01/ocbcs-birthday-cake.html

Little Gems is Giving 10% all Fans

If you haven't already heard, we are giving all our fans a 10% discount throughout the month of January 2010. We figured we needed to say Thank You to everyone for being so supportive and generous. And what better way to start stocking up for the Chinese New Year hols!

So, here it is

http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#/pages/Little-Gems/83632417163


Piss...Get your Discount Code here

Happy Shopping!

New Year, New Hope, New Dreams

This is taking me a little longer to write. Its the second day of the New Year, and here I am still reflecting on the year past, and thinking in anticipation about what the New Year beckons. 2009 had started out a really rocky and bumpy ride. As we cruised along the winding road, what started out as a really tough journey, has worked its way around, and I have come off the journey a more mature individual, blessed in many ways.

The past year had been a year of some really low Lows...my Papa's passing, and a friend's passing not long after. Angie's passing affected me as we were on the same treatment regime. While the drugs helped in my healing process, it didn't for her. I shuddered to think of the fragility of life and at the back of my mind, there will always be a lingering thought of "What if it didn't work". The tears has somewhat dried, as i think of Papa and Angie more often during happier moments, rather than those sad days when they were ill.

There were of course many high points in the year where the moments of joy and simple happiness I relished, like watching Nic grow. Sharing her pride and joy, when she scored a Band 1 for Mathematics, after much hard work. She deserved it! Watching her marvel with amazement at the sight of snow for the very first time, going on her first roller coaster ride, and making new friends while we were on tour. Nic amazes me all the time, with the amount of energy and zest she has...it just makes me want to keep up with her...all the time!

Looking back at 2009, the year hasn't been all that bad....really

I do not really like the idea of planning too far ahead just in case i jinx my good fortunes. I have learned to live my life, making plans for the year ahead, never on a 5 year plan basis.

So in the year 2010, i am going to live my life like i did in 2009...to the fullest.